Here's The Deal

I did a shitty thing.

I am ashamed of myself for doing the shitty thing.

While I've been forgiven by the person I did the shitty thing to, I am still too embarrassed to speak to them.

It was a shitty thing.

I'd probably be less ashamed if it wasn't being the exact kind of asshole I've been working hard to not be anymore.

Admitting the wrong is as brave as I can be at the moment.