An Apology

I do tend to go off on things that appear to be tangents from out of the blue.  They usually aren't completely out of the blue from my end, but you can't see that.

It is during these tangents I am at my most offensive and I only realize how offensive long after the fact and far too late to take it back.

It is something I've been wrestling with for a long time, especially since me at my most offensive very rarely is managing to say what I meant.

Being offensive while not even meaning it.

Wow.

Just wow.

I am sorry for being offensive.  Really!

I think I am doing better overall and that makes when I still lose my grip seem worse.  Is that true?

I can't tell from here.

You can tell me through comments though.  That invitation is going to sting, but... well I need to learn.

Thanks in advance for your help.

Sorry for being the jerk I tend to be.